I Don’t Even Have Words

Today my world shattered, a piece of me is gone forever. My first friend, my protector, my big brother is gone.

We didn’t always see eye to eye, what siblings do? But, push comes to shove and we always had each others backs.

I don’t even know where to begin. We didn’t talk every day or every week for that matter. I’m thinking back on the last conversation we had, I was telling him about my health condition and that I’d keep updated as I learned more. I didn’t call him Wednesday after my meeting with the doctors at UVA because I was waiting to tell him all about it when I had a surgery date scheduled, now it doesn’t matter.

I’m thinking back on all the fights and non-stop teasing that we inflicted on each other and all the laughs we shared. Your smile and laugh were infectious and it’s crushing me right now because I’ll never get to hear that sound again.

You’ll always be my big brother and I’m hoping you’re finally getting time to catch up with mom, grandma, and the grandpas. Don’t go all crazy hunting and fishing wherever you are make sure to save some of that for everyone else.

Rest In Peace and I’ll never forget you.

Uhmmmm So Haven’t Written Too Much For Today’s Page

Today, there isn’t a whole lot being written for my story of my life. Here in my neck of the woods we got hit by Winter Storm Grayson. At my house we didn’t get nearly the amount of snow they were calling for, but we did get ice and wind.

The wind was pretty insane last night and into this morning. The transformer by my house blew last night well early this morning causing the power to go out. I saw and heard the transformer blow. There was quite the blue/green flash of color when the transformer blew.

So, no electric meant not a whole lot going on when your power goes out you realize how much you do that requires the power to be on. Luckily, for me the husband is home, we have a generator, and a fireplace. My husband got up set up the generator so that we could warm up the house a bit and also make some breakfast, and started a fire. He also shoveled the walkway and cleaned off our cars. Of course he had to do it again since the wind blew everything back onto the cars and walkway. He got his workout in today, me I’ve spent the day curled up under a blanket with my book.

Soooo, yeah my page isn’t really filled today. It’s more like the last 2-3 sentences that end a chapter that just wouldn’t fit on the previous page. But, hey that’s okay not everyday are we going to something extraordinary, but every day is extraordinary.

I did thumb through Diane Sanfilippo’s new book 21-Day Sugar Detox. And, just quickly glancing at it I’ve found several recipes that I can’t wait to try. I love her Practical Paleo Cookbook so I’m excited for these recipes. Back to serious meal planning for the next couple of weeks. I need to get back into the groove, and stock up the freezer with meals for when I’m recovering.

Okay, so once the power came back on this is what I’ve really been doing with my day. So maybe I’m writing my story today walking down memory lane by watching a show I loved growing up.

Don’t be to quick to put down what you do in a day it’s all relative and shaping you into the person who you’ll be.

A New Day A New Page And It’s Looking Pretty Positive.

Today I met with my new team of doctors that will be treating my Cushings Disease. It went really well.

Both the endocrinologist and neurosurgeon were in complete agreement that not only do I have Cushings but I am textbook case of it.

They are both very confident that with surgery I will go into remission. They let me know that it would be an awful recovery time but eventually I will feel better and start getting back to my old self.

I’m optimistic about the prognosis they gave me and also the timeline that was given for surgery, hospital stay, and recovery at home. They assured me that I’d be fine on my own after leaving the hospital, would be able to drive within a week, but not expect to go back to the gym for 6-8 weeks. Which, that of course sucks but if it means that I’m feeling better and will get more out of my workouts in the long run it’s all worth it.

2018 is going to be a good year for me.

There’s going to be lots of posts all about Cushings and my recovery coming your way over the next couple of months. A bit nerve wracking to thing in a few short weeks I could be having a surgery to remove a tumor from my pituitary gland and this changing my life. Now to keep myself from being a neurotic, anxious, nutcase until my surgery date.

Happy Hump Day and for all of you on the East Coast getting hit with Winter Storm Grayson stay safe and warm. Here we are ready for the snow got the essentials, fireplace ready to go, generator ready to go, salt and snow shovels ready to clean up the mess. Of course the entire city is already shut down and will remain that way tomorrow. Downside to this snow OTF cancelled my class tomorrow 😦 Yeah that’s my main concern no OTF 2 days in a row. They have the 3 evening classes still scheduled so I may try to go to one if they don’t cancel them as well. We will see I’m even tempted to do a 3G since it’s one of my favorite coaches coaching the 3G class. Plus I have a feeling it won’t really be 3G as I’m sure tons of people won’t come due to the snow, roads, and not wanting to be on the roads. Driving in the snow doesn’t phase this upstate NY girl.

Okay, enough from me I have a cup of hot cocoa, my book, blanket, and comfy chair waiting for me.

Make the best out of this page of your life.

Page 2 Of The Newest Chapter

I woke up today with a purpose. It was to get my workout in, spend some time with my husband, and get some stuff done around the house.

I’m happy to say I did it all. My morning started off with a workout that included more rowing than I like, in fact it was the second day in a row of run/rows. WHAT!!!! Can someone please explain to me what that’s about. I will say that today was a lot less brutal than yesterday’s. And, I made it through. I even grabbed heavier weights without being told too. I’m learning and growing. My stats not as great as I’d like but I wasn’t sitting my butt on the couch.

I spent time with the husband today I mean most of it was running errands and doing boring adult type stuff but we were together, so yeah. He’s only home for a couple of more days before he heads out again to start his new job.

As for the stuff around the house it’s done. Laundry is done, folded, and put away. Dishwasher is emptied, refilled, and ready to go. Dinner was cooked and consumed. It was good. It’s Tuesday so it was a Taco kinda night.

Tomorrow is going to be a long overwhelming day, but I’m both excited and nervous for it. I hopefully will have a lot more answers by tomorrow evening as to my diagnosis, treatment, and what to be expected for the next coming weeks and months. I’ll be posting updates about this once I’ve had time to digest all the information I’m sure I’ll be sitting through after tomorrow.

Hope if today was your first day back to work after the holiday that it went smoothly and just think only 3 days left of the work week.

Talk to you all soon.

Today’s Day One of A Whole New Chapter

Happy New Year. Welcome 2018.

Today’s the first page in a whole new chapter of your life, you get to choose the story you write for the next 365 days.

This year I’m going to write the best story I can for my life. Last year was filled with lots of ups and downs. Physically, mentally, emotionally, professionally, and personally.

I changed jobs and haven’t quite picked up the momentum I want with the new job but I know it will come.

I had/have some major health issues going on. Fortunately, we have found the cause of all of these issues and I am on my way to fixing/curing the issue. I’ll still be dealing with this over the year, but I’ve ended 2017 with a diagnosis and a start of a plan to get back to my old self health wise.

I started working out at Orange Theory Fitness where I push myself beyond my comfort level more times than I can count. I’ve met some amazing people from the staff, coaches, and other members. It’s been truly an amazing experience and I can’t wait to see what I accomplish alongside all these amazing people in 2018.

I stepped up with the non-profit I’ve been working with. Taking on more responsibilities and learning more and more about the foundation and all that goes into what is done in order to make things happen. I’m excited about working on our biggest fundraiser committee over the next couple of months and also working on setting up some vendors to help cut costs and streamline things.

Over this past year I’ve said goodbye to loved ones, friends fell by the wayside and others just weren’t meant to be. But, for every person that has left my life there has been at least one new person added to my life that has inspired, encouraged, and meant the world to me.

I’m looking forward to 2018 and all that it will bring me. I know I have a long road to recovery coming up and will be dealing with some challenges but I’m also excited to see the type of person this shapes me to be.

And, as it’s a New Year and one of my goals is to be as healthy as I can, I started the day off with a OTF workout that was brutal. But, hey I did it and I survived and next year at this time hopefully I won’t think it’s as brutal as I felt it was today.

This is the first of many OTF summary reports for the year 2018.

So, as I look forward to 2018 and all it may throw at me I’m getting my sh*t together to make it the best year I possibly can.

Hope that you have had a great year and that 2018 delivers all that you hope for.

A Little Late But…361/365

For the last several years my husband has gotten me Hanukkah gifts from Modern Tribe. It’s a website with all things Jewish. And, well this year was quite entertaining.

Nail decals, Mazel Tov cards, a koozie, socks, dreidel tongs, dreidel silicon mold, drinking games, and drinking dreidels. Uhmmm yeah I loved them all.

I’m particularly thrilled with my tongs. They go great with my menorah spatula and challah bread pan from previous years.

Now to convince the husband I need an Instapot and Vitamix Blender and my life will be grand.

Happy next to last night of 2017.

Endurance Not my Strong Suit 360/365

So, being as there is only 1 day left in the year and I’ll only be at 361 of 365 I’m thinking I miscounted somewhere al by the way. Oh well.

Anyway today’s workout was an endurance workout at OTF and well that’s my least favorite type of workout and today wasn’t any different.

The run/row block nearly destroyed me. After a 11 minute tread block then to jump into an 800 meter row with a 1 minute recovery then into a 400 meter row and if that wasn’t enough run for distance until time is called. Ughhhhh I hate you rower. I had a great coach well all the coaches at my location are awesome, but this coach is amazing at coaching me through these longer rows. And, I classify any row over 250 meters as long, pathetic I know but still. I made it through the rows and even managed to shave 7 seconds off on my 400 meter row when I had to repeat it while on the floor. I’ll eventually will get there where I don’t have a complete mental breakdown over rowing.

On another note finally have a date for my consultation with the neurosurgeon as in next week. I’m pretty excited about that!!! Getting closer to feeling better.

Happy Friday all!!

Happy Boxing, Kwanza, New Nails Day 357/365

It’s Boxing Day if you’re Canadian and if you’re not well it’s still Boxing Day in Canada.

It’s also the start of Kwanza if you celebrate that.

For me it was do a new manicure day. I was lazy and never changed my nails from Hanukkah to Christmas. Oops. So, I needed to change them because Hanukkah is over and they were starting to look pretty worn.

New Years theme it is. I’m pretty excited about them. Sloth out, I do have one nail that is bugging me and as soon as I finish this post I’ll be fixing it.

Hope everyone had a great holiday.