I Don’t Even Have Words

Today my world shattered, a piece of me is gone forever. My first friend, my protector, my big brother is gone.

We didn’t always see eye to eye, what siblings do? But, push comes to shove and we always had each others backs.

I don’t even know where to begin. We didn’t talk every day or every week for that matter. I’m thinking back on the last conversation we had, I was telling him about my health condition and that I’d keep updated as I learned more. I didn’t call him Wednesday after my meeting with the doctors at UVA because I was waiting to tell him all about it when I had a surgery date scheduled, now it doesn’t matter.

I’m thinking back on all the fights and non-stop teasing that we inflicted on each other and all the laughs we shared. Your smile and laugh were infectious and it’s crushing me right now because I’ll never get to hear that sound again.

You’ll always be my big brother and I’m hoping you’re finally getting time to catch up with mom, grandma, and the grandpas. Don’t go all crazy hunting and fishing wherever you are make sure to save some of that for everyone else.

Rest In Peace and I’ll never forget you.

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